Home is where the <3 is..

I've heard my mother say plenty of times that her heart lies on that "farm" near my Granny & Papa. Even though she & my stepfather are building a million dollar home in Louisiana, she says it will never really be her home...

Why can't I say that about my home in south Mississippi?? Why doesn't it bother me that I no longer live there? Why am I not home sick?

Yes, my heart is where my family, true friends, and memories are.. But, I don't know that I could truly say that my heart is in Mississippi. Every time I go "home" I am comfortable around my family and the few real friends I've kept in touch with since I left, but I always feel a little out of place. I always feel that I really don't know who some of those people I've known all my life are.

My heart is where my husband is. That is my life now. That is what matters most. Home is where we are going to build a life.
As the time is drawing to an end here in Texas, where will Patrick & I call home? I am excited to find out!

I guess I really did break away..

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Be True To Yourself :)

I am realizing very quickly just how many people around me aren't true to themselves.

Why live behind a mask? Why live by other people's rules?

I am not here to act a certain way just to make someone happy. You are supposed to learn these things when you go through high school, & grow up. You finally see what's important in life, other than trying to be in a "click" or impress your friends to be accepted. Once you are an adult, you should've learned from your mistakes and how to be yourself. Most importantly, learned exactly who you are.

You should be comfortable in who you are. Be true to yourself, and be true to others in the sense that you are honest w/ them and a real friend. Accept your friends for who they are, and choose your friends wisely. Surround yourself w/ people who will lift you up, not drag you down.

If you encounter a friend whom you feel you can't be yourself around, then maybe you shouldn't be friends w/ that person. Life is not about gossip, or who's doing what. Life is about growing, learning, sharing, & embracing. Life is too short to be cattish.

I'll admit, I've made stupid mistakes. I've tried to act a certain way to make people happy. I've dealt w/ this a lot in the past. But, I'm learning. I'm growing up. The only people I now worry about making happy are my husband and family (including those friends who are considered family). Those are the people who matter most. Those are the people who will be there when no one else is.

From the words of Ziggy Marley : "Do what you feel and don't you fool yourself; Call me selfish if you will, my life I alone can live; I don't care if it hurts, I'm tired of all these lies and games; I've reached a point in life, no longer can I be this way; I've got to be true to myself."

So if you see a change in me, take it w/ a grain of salt. It's for the better. Love me or leave me.

I've got the best friend of all: Jesus Christ! :)

Starting to Feel like "ME"

For a few months I just haven't felt like myself. I haven't been able to be "ME". I think I was allowing others influences to get the best of me.

After some soul searching and forgiveness, I've started to feel like "ME" again! (which by the way, feels soo good!)

The positives about feeling like myself again:
I smile & laugh more.
My relationship w/ my husband is blossoming.
I can speak my mind.
I am more emotionally stable.
I am starting to get fit & healthier.
I am able to open up to my friends and have them accept me for me, or don't.

I've always been a happy person. But, sometimes you lose the vision of things.
I'm so glad to be feeling like myself again.
Hopefully, people will begin to see the change in me. :)